Many Thanks 2021

Unlock 2022 With Some Gratefulness For 2021

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I admit it, I am a sentimental sucker. And this year has been full of so many revelations and changes and cliff roads to climb and navigate. I have seen so many things, the good, the bad, and the sad. But all of them have led me to this place, to this time and that is where gratefulness begins.

Gratefulness and Thankfulness fall under gratitude, which honestly, I don’t know where I would be without. Being able to look back and celebrate all the good that came with the bad is the only way I have to heal. Jinny (my inner child) reminds me of this a lot, and I suppose she is as good a place to start. Without her, I wouldn’t be here, plain and simple. I was like the walking dead before I found her (or she found me, as she would say).

Differences

Thankfulness… is what I practice when I perceive I have been given something, to remind myself that this gift came from outside of me and that I am better because of it. It is key to giving and receiving.

Gratefulness… comes from inside of me. It is me seeing that what I have, what I am, is good. It is not the same as being content, there are plenty of things that happened in my life that I didn’t like. But when I look back through the lens of gratefulness, I see all the good that came from those events. Being confronted with my truth by my wife, enduring anger and misunderstanding, going from unseen to mis-seen, are all terrible things. But they have taught me so much about myself, and how to stand on my own.

Not Really Alone

But I’ve never really been alone. I have had spiritual help from numerous sources, and all of them have been good to me. This has been one of the harder areas to talk about, and I hope to explore it more here, but it would be simplest to say that I believe, I know, that there is so much we don’t know about the spiritual world, but I do know this, there is so much love there, so much peace, and so many ways to connect with our truest self. Here we are limited by the materials at hand and our reflections are imperfect (I have some more to say about this too, so stay tuned…)

My Gratitude

And while we are on the subject of gratitude, and being grateful, I would like to say a huge THANK YOU to you, my dear Medium family. You have no idea how much it means to me that you have chosen to walk with me on this journey. You will always be special to me and your trust in my voice is helping me to find myself. Thank you for your follows, for your claps, for your shout-outs, and for your discussions. I have learned so much from interacting with you. And I hope to keep learning from you.

For My Followers

For those of you who are following me, I have no words. You are so beautiful and I see my voice and my love reflected in your comments, in your understanding, in how you share your truth with me, even when you only have time to listen, you are sharing my journey, and affirming me. And that is why I keep some of my most personal posts on my own feed. Because you wanted to know me better, and I honor that by sharing with you all the things I can bear here, no publications required…

The Secret to 2022

Feeling 2021, accepting the good and the bad, and being grateful for all the lessons, the hurts and the heals, is key to moving forward for me. I can look to 2022 now and see more clearly where my road is taking me. I want this journey, I need this journey because it is making my reflection better. I feel so much now when I see stories, I feel them so deeply, I am becoming the “seer” that I was always meant to be, and for that, I am truly grateful.

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Jenny Starr✨

Jenny Starr✨

A transgender woman (she/they) learning her way in this beautiful life…queer, curious, thoughtful. I write poetry, LGBTQ and whatever else. Come away with me!